am i having mid-life crisis? hahaha... i dunno, i think im having the-normal-irene-crisis. on & off i will feel crappy, donno if because of PMS or just plain sampat-ness on my end. i feel like my life has no excitement. tell me, what's the purpose of our lives? see see... im asking mangkok question again, what the hell is wrong with me!!!!!!
my hubs said i don't spend time with my lil missy. i know, and i feel like i'm the worst mom around. not loving her enuf, not spending time with her, only know how to shout at her when she did something notty or wrong. i just don't have the time! i will normally reach home around 7.30pm and that is considered early already, if not sometimes 8pm.
once i'm at home, the first thing i do is to boil water. then wash the bottles, refill drinkable water. then put in the dirty laundry, then pack lil missy's bag for school next day, her extra clothing for the daycare. then after that, pick this up, pick that up, sit down to eat dinner. luckily we catered food, so we only need to cook the rice, which hubs diligently does it everyday, thank you iloveyou! after dinner, i will wash everything, and anything. after eating, i will sweep & mop the floor, oh before i forget, in between sweeping & mopping, i will bring in the dry clothes and folds them. once i'm done with mopping, i will go to bath
after bathing, let's not forget, washing machine done washing our clothes, time for hanging. once done hanging the clothes for drying, i will look at the clock, and it will shows 11.30pm. if i'm lucky, it will show 10.30pm. i see... now i know why i just don't have the time to play with lil missy... hmmm... my time management, lousy! aaaaaaaarggggh!
everyday i do the same thing at home. everyone goes thru the same thing, i know, but i'm just damn damn bored with the same old routine. i know i know, i gotta be thankful, i got food on the table, a home to clean up, a lil missy to shout at, a hubs whom helps me with lil missy BUT i just need to rant! makes me feel better... i dunno if i can cope with 2nd baby, but i really want a another baby for us :)