my greatest achievement

though sometimes i feel that life sucks at certain area of my life. I know I've been well blessed with this part of my life, being a mother of 2 kiddos. till today my mom and aunts still can't believe I have 2 kids. hahaha... cus I am forever a clown in their eyes. a forever playful child. hehe...

 

Krystal @ 2007

 nevertheless, I'm really happy being a mother. not only the kids can give u sleepless nights, high blood pressure, vandalism, they will never fail to put a smile on your face when they do silly things :)

Kayden @ 2011

 

so this I am very thankful!

Life's a toot

Last week was hell for me at work. I was having mental torture thinking about my career enhancement to the extent of sleepless nights. Besides waking up every midnight for Kayden's milk fix, I was having un-peaceful sleep hence I got sick. I was having flu and cough till I went to the moon. I thought I was going to cough my lungs out. 

Then the day I've been waiting for months arrived. I was praying for a good day with good results. The time came and a SMS came to me. The context told me to check the web page for results. With a crazily beating heart I checked. Then SMACK! I've failed. Again. For the 2nd time. I couldn't believe my eyes. I refresh for I hope I was seeing wrongly but no. It was correct and clear, unfortunately. I was speechless. I am never speechless. I was hardly speechless but this time I was. I was holding on to my tears. So hard, that I could feel a dagger stabbed thru it. So dramatic huh?! Yes. It was. Nothing could be done. It's out of my reach. It's out of my power, as if I've one. 

Fish! Fish! Fish! 

All my plans went down the big longkang outside my house. That's it! My tears starts rolling down my cheek. Thank God nobody was around. I felt so stopid. Really stopid for hoping it would come true. I don't know what to say to myself to console my heart and my aching head. I felt betrayed. I felt like an idiot to trust the system again and again. How can I be that stopid. Sigh! 

A friend then SMS me for lunch. I told her the bad news. She was having her good news but she didn't tell me till later for having me crying again. Why am I so unlucky? Thank God for this friend who let me pour my heart out. God bless her! She even bought me a nice lunch but I just couldn't eat. For the 1st time there was no hunger in me. Crap. My stomach probably lost its feeling. My body was numb. I never say no to good food but I just couldn't swallow anything.

Why is life so not fair... WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Personalised Touch & Go card

When I got to know that you can personalize your Touch & Go card, punya lah cepat I sms hubs to get it done! He replied to me several hours later telling me "aiyo, very long Q lah"... and I was so disappointed :(

Then after awhile, I got a picture message like this! hehehehe... I haven't start using it, soon or it will be sitting in my wallet for a long time. hahaha... this cost RM20.00, can be done in Touch&Go centre in KL Sentral

hmmmm... maybe I should personalize another T&G card with the below yummeh image eh? muahahahahaha...

si budak so active!

my lil missy is 5 years old this year. she can be an angel, and she can be a devil. depending on her mood. sometimes super manja. sometimes super stubborn. isn't all kids liddat kan?

she is super active. she can talk non stop from the moment she wakes up until she sleeps off at night. nowadays, when we go back to hometown, i can't really leave her home with my mom when I go out, cus my mom can't take it, gives her headache she said. hahahaha... poor grandma kena "torture" with the usual, who, what, where why but don't get us wrong, grandma still loves her to bits! i think her little brother is getting there soon, lawyer buruk no2 in the making ^_^

my mom & my aunt still laughed at me sometimes, always saying that they can't believe I am a mother of two kiddos. oh well, I myself can't believe it too as I was a lawyer buruk myself... hahahaha... gosh! time really flies when you are so occupied with everything and anything. especially when you come back home and want to have a decent quiet dinner cus all you do at work is listening to people complaining about anything and everything, you have this lil missy come up to you asking you to spell anything and everything, you know what i mean? hahaha... gosh, it's really taxing to be parents huh?

i wonder if when we were younger, are we like this? asking our parents about anything and everything? or we sit quietly and mind our own stuff? hmmm... i gotta really blame it on the DHA of those milk powders, what do they put inside? super talkative potion? or a spoonful of super activeness? above all, I am thankful I have one lawyer buruk in da house and one upcoming lawyer buruk in the making

till then, be good

Kayden

Wuahseh, I have abandoned my blog for almost half a year now. hehehe… blame it on super-lazy-awesome-ness! I don’t even know if anyone still reads but what the heck. Dear hubby of mine been asking, why u no longer blog wan? Hehehe... lazy lah… oh well, it’s never too late to start again this time, with our newest addition, well… not that new anymore when he’s already 6 months old 

Kayden was taken care by my relative back in hometown for close to 6 months and we decided to bring him to KL so we all can be together and we could watch him grow up & bring me high blood pressure and of cos a smile on my face when I watch him sleep

His sister lil missy is 5 years old now, which I felt we have actually wasted time and thus both siblings has a big age gap, but when we are all together, I am also relieved that his sister is actually 5 years old. lil missy is all independent by herself and we can pay more attention to the lil one as he is the little one u see. hehe! And lil missy being a big sista, is always so helpful and cooperative, and I truly THANK GOD for her being there to be my eyes and ears at times... still I felt big age gap... oh well nothing can be done now

So I am currently back to being zombi-fied as lil hero is bullying his mom, by waking up once or twice middle of the night for his milky way. And yesterday I sprained my hand for carrying him too long. arrrrgggghhh! wanna whack his buttock! I shall be patience and wait till he is a bit bigger for the ultimatum buttock whoop-ass! muahahaha... I know, I've gone crazy... blame it on the lack of zzzzzz

And also, we have a helper at home now,  so no more "permanent" housework for me. of course i still do some housework lah, that's is my only form of exercise leh. hehe... i hope she is here to work for us many many years *prays* cus she can cook and we are having home cooked meal now, save us a lot of time and some $ there. really hope she won't leave us after 2 years lor...

oh well. till then. be good

this is just awesome

imagine this in near future... fuhlamak!

the day has arrived!

many asked why don't wait till the special date --> 11.11.2011

I also dunno leh, most probably I'm afraid that the hospital would

be overwhelming with mothers in labour? haha... what a funny thot...

or maybe I was too anxious to have my baby out to meet us? so we

have decided to come in earlier to induce and have our baby!

the induce machine... ooooh scary!

the mission has started. waiting game.

daddy oh daddy, sleepy oh daddy!

his "best friend" came to accompany him

during the waiting session :)

and of course, my most important "friend"

thru out my labour journey

mr laughing gas o_O

so after 3plus hours of not so pain, and

after 3plus hours of excruciating pain,

to hell and back, pain which we can never explain

in words, pain which is like O_O tremendous pain,

I can go on and on with the pain, but let's

not bore people with it yeah ;)

Thank YOU almighty GOD as I've safely

delivered my precious lil boy

Presenting to my friends, my little Kayden :)